Still no work

Despite applying for around three jobs a week, I haven’t had any responses. The agency who supposedly got me an interview have not responded to my calls or e-mails in two weeks, so I take it that interview has fell through. It’s getting very frustrating and money is running out. In fact, it’s so bad right now I can’t go out anywhere and I cannot buy Sean a present for our three years of being together which is on the 17th. I have never been this hard up in my life. It’s awful being a new married couple and broke. Sean has been trying to get more hours at work, but there’s none to get.

I am not entitled to job seekers allowance. I tried to apply for it last time, went on a couple of occasions to sign on, then was told by letter I was in fact not entitled to a penny of it because “my partner earns enough money for us to live on”. Put it this way, after the rent is paid, Sean is left with around £50 for a month, then there’s the bills. I am so peeved at this. If Sean was unemployed also, we’d get everything on a plate and more. Unemployed people seem to be rewarded and much better off than those who graft for their money. That’s the United Kingdom for you, no justice for hard workers. They wonder why the country is full of scroungers.

We’re going to apply for housing and council tax benefit to see if we’re entitled. We need some sort of help right now. Our only concern is our landlord will evict us for claiming the housing benefit because I believe he doesn’t accept it. We need to give our consent to him being contacted if we want the benefit, you see. If that fails, then I have no idea what we’ll do. If the worst comes to the worst, we may have to move. I’d probably have to move back with my parents and Sean with his. I’ve heard on many occasions people having to do this, rather sad isn’t it? Married or long-term couples having to part because they can’t afford to live. Our government seems to hate couples, we’re always being bit on the arse. Just the thought of having to move out away from Sean upsets me. We’re married for goodness sake!

I’ve been miserable over this lately and so has Sean. We’ve had arguments over this many times. I have no idea what we can do. I’m doing my best, looking for jobs, applying and trying to get some web design work online. I’m improving the design of my portfolio site, hopefully I can drum up some business. If anybody needs any website design, please contact me.

I don’t usually whine about being broke, so I’m sorry if it annoys you. It’s just I have no other thoughts right now, I really wish my circumstances would change for the better, hopefully they will soon. I’m trying to keep positive.

A case of the BSOD’s

Does anybody remember the good old days, the days of Windows Millenium Edition? Yes, I am cringing too. Gosh, that operating system brings back memories. Not good memories, however. I remember being in a constant rage with the darn thing. I’d be surfing the web or working on a very important school assignment, when the computer would just freeze on me. I would then have to restart and then it would just freeze again. I remember this time all too well. Many tantrums were thrown, many tears fell. There’d be times when the dreaded Blue Screen of Death (BSOD) would appear, that angered me even more. The thing haunted me, until I upgraded to Windows XP, thank goodness. It was nice to go without the nasty blue errors for five plus years. XP didn’t really give me any problems, all was good. Then there was Vista.

Ah, Windows Vista. How much I loathed it at first. I thought it was the root of all evil, until my new laptop had the operating system installed. I started warming up to Vista because in fact, it wasn’t all that evil and actually worked as sweet as a nut. That was then. While chatting on messenger a few days ago, suddenly a wave of deep blue came over me. It remained there on the screen, that blueness. I started to sweat, to panic. The Millenium Edition memories came flooding back like rancid, overflowed sewage. I just sat there staring, I had forgotten what a Blue Screen of Death looked like. Before I could concentrate on the error information, Lappy restarted. I was still dumbfounded on what happened. I have been BSOD’d quite a few times since then, all at completely random times and situations. I have tried finding a solution on the Internet, but it seems quite a few people were getting the same error and that there wouldn’t be much of a solution until another Windows update.

For now, I will just have to deal with it. I can get through this. Yes I can.